Ashley S. (xneonmoonx) wrote in fatherless,
Ashley S.
xneonmoonx
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Hey!

I'm brand new here. I mainly joined because I'm still in the process of letting go of what I thought was a father. I won't go into my life-story, but I'll give you a brief background that represents the reason why I'm here.

From the ages of 2-3, my father molested me. I told my mom about it, and she questioned my father, who (of course) denied what he had done. Fortunately, my telling my mom about what he'd done scared him out of keeping it up. Unfortunately, the fighting between my parents grew worse and worse over the years, and they separated when I was 6. They signed the divorce decree when I was 7. Apparently, my father still had alot of anger bottled up inside of him, because he took it out on me and my younger brother while we were on visits with him every other Saturday. He not only put us down, but he did nothing but badmouth my mom and her side of the family with things that weren't true, but he also tried to turn us against her by telling us that we "didn't have to" respect her. He said that she was "raising us all wrong."

Well, apparently HE was the person that was "raising us all wrong," because otherwise he wouldn't have molested me and resorted to verbal abuse. But I finally came to my senses when I was 10, and progressed towards filing for a restraining order against him when I was 13. I'm 15 now, and I'm slowly (but surely) working my way towards letting him go and healing. I have an amazing boyfriend who has supported me, and my family and friends have been incredible too.

Anyway, that's my story. Feel free to comment!:-)
-neon
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wow, you were able to come to terms with all that by the time you were 10? I've never heard of such a thing. you kids today are so bloody brilliant, how did you do it? Seriously, my generation is dying to know. not literally. well, some of us...but, WOW. That's amazing. you're amazing.
It's the job of both parents to raise you. So it wasn't just your father. I'm sure your mother had her faults too. I saw my mother's faults as soon as I was aware of not having a father and how that affected my life.